SIMPLE

" it's easy...as SIMPLE as ABC....

but it scratched..oh...I wounded...

I could feel my blood splashed out through my skin...

Gosh...

tearing my heart to pieces..

hey you SIMPLE....

please STOP..!!!!

STOP thinking so SIMPLE......

it's you that SIMPLE....

for me, it's double triple trillion NOT SIMPLE!

you start with A...

and you just SIMPLY ended with Z....

how lovely..."

BETUL RASANYA.

bila lagha menjelma....

 habis sepelosok laman sesawang nak ceroboh...

woot woot....

jumpa something yg MACAM BEST...hmmm..macam laaa...

betul ke tak..???

entah..tak tahu....

awak2...gadis2 sunti yg dekat luar sana tuuuu....

sendiri fikir la ye betul ke idok..???

mungkin ya mungkin tidak...

pilihan di tangan anda...muahahahahha.....

nah....extra large punya aku kasi....

baca wahai awak...jangan tak baca...

sebab bagi aku benda ni macam best....

lalalalalala...

dah tutup cerita...bubye....

assalamualaikum...

-atihinata-

GOODBYE REALITY.

hey, awakkkk...ye awak bulan Mac...

Selamat datang....

is it the last month that I'll be spending my time here???? 

should I fill it with all good memories..???

should I???

yes...I think I should....

but why I still could feel the hurt....

who gives me that hurt..??? who...???? 

I know who...well thanks for that hurt that YOU ACCIDENTALLY give me...

is it still a good memory for me..???

if it is yes, then why it hurts me so much? why..???

I'm asking you why????

please stop doing what you're doing...

it's hurting me slowly...silently....deeply.....

I want to see you...I want talk to you..I want to laugh together with you..

but I CAN'T....I'm sorry I really CAN'T...

yo...what's all the rubbish I'm talking...?

enough Izzati...! stop making yourself look like a fool...

ignore all those things...

don't ever let them control your mind..NEVER...!

but still............

still I feel like I'm an idiot...

who can't differentiate which one is reality and imagination...

this is not an imagination...

this is what people call reality....

and that reality can't never be mine...

yet reality will be bitter...hurt...full of pain..

that's reality....

if I don't feel that hurt..or pain...then,,,,I can assume that I live in my own imagination...

I leave my reality....

Today, I'm going to say 'bye' to my imagination world...

and 'Hi' my reality...I'm back...

to be hurt again again again and again.....

because when heart doesn't tell the truth, pain gives the answers....

Just like I say...all I can see from you is pain...hurt...frustration..devastation...

you wrote everything with your black feeling...

each time you close your eyes...

I believe...you can only see darkness...no light...all black...

loneliness...

Is that what you feel..???

frustrated..

Is that what you bear...???

wilting...

Is that what you're going to be...???

You can say anything that you want...

you can let yourself collapse in a sea of darkness...

You can always let yourself become as thick as the metal...

You can be hopeless...

You can put yourself in wonder for the longest time that you want...

Do you forget something..???

Do you realize something...???

Sometimes, Allah lets you to meet and know with the wrong person..

before He gives the right person for you..

why..???

because He wants to test you...

because He loves you...

You may feel like there's no love that is being left for you...

You may feel that you only get to have the residue of love..

but you dont know how lucky you are...

In spite of losing human's love...

You've got the biggest love and you dont realize it...

People always say that..

" This is our life..my life..."

No,,they are wrong...we are wrong...

This life doesn't belong to us..it belongs to Allah...

Allah gives us life so that we can plan, act, enjoy, live, serve and be a slave...

Allah doesn't give this life  for us to damage it..

or for us to throw a big stone and make our life crack...

but Allah gives this life to us...

so that we can learn from our mistakes..

so that we can see the suffering of others...

if you think your problems are the worst...

and if you feel like you dont want to live anymore...

then you should see those orphanages who lost their parents...

who lives alone when there's no one to be there for them whenever they pour out their tears..

be grateful for what you have...for what you feel...

cuz' you're still breathing..

you still have the chance to taste all the sweetest things in this world...

although sometimes,,, the sweetest things can be the most bitter for you...

but still it is not as bitter as others....

for once...

forget that you are alone...forget that you are hurt...

look back...and you'll see there's your truly friends...

waiting for you to reach their hands...

waiting for you to smile back to them...

waiting for you to walk together...

waiting for you to make your life better....

and remember...

we are here not to compete each other...

but we are here to complete each other...

hanya kau ku fokuskan..

lensa kamera ku fokuskan kepada kau..

ya..engkau yg berkepala hijau..berbadan putih...

mungkin kau tertanya kenapa..

ini kerana aku yang memilih kau...

antara kau dan pemadam..

aku pilih kau.. 

dulu..aku sering menggunakan kau..

tanpa menyedari apa-apa..aku terus menggunakan kau...

setelah sekian lama kau tidak ku gunakan...

akhirnya aku menyentuh kau kembali..

dan dari situ datangnya kesedaran yang aku rasakan kini..

lalu..aku menyoal diri sendiri...

kenapa kau ku gunakan berulang kali..

kesalahan..ya..kerana ada kesalahan yang aku lakukan...

bukan bermaksud aku nak melenyapkan terus kesalahan tu..

tak juga bermaksud aku nak lupakan kesalahan yang aku lakukan..

apatah lagi nak tutup kesalahan yang aku dah buat...

tetapi aku menggunakan kau untuk betulkan kesilapan yang aku cipta..

dan walaupun aku dah padam kesalahan yang aku buat tu..

still aku takkan lupa..

kerana kau tetap akan meninggalkan kesan tompokan putih pada selembar kertas aku..

di mana aku akan sentiasa ingat bila dan di mana kesalahan aku...

supaya aku berjaga-jaga..

bila aku pandang kesan tompokan putih tu..

aku akan ingatkan diri aku agar tidak mengulangi kesalahan yang sama...

walaupun begitu..

aku mungkin akan menggunakan kau lagi..

bukan untuk membetulkan kesalahan yang sama..

tetapi untuk membetulkan kesalahan yang baru..

ini kerana aku hanya manusia biasa..

kesalahan demi kesalahan akan aku terus lakukan...

dan tidak akan pernah suci dari kesalahan sampai aku mati...

jadi kerana itu..

kau aku perlukan..

supaya kau dapat membantu aku...

mengingati...tidak mengulangi...menyedari....menginsafi diri...

hanya kau..

'liquid'

that something..

Something needs to be found..

that something must be true..

out of no where..

I don't even know too...

For something that can be true..

or it will always be true...

Seeking that something which can be two..

Maybe through the dust and midst it's coming through..

Remains silent..

Slowly appear...

Or can that something be you....

Cuz' it's you to find that something inside you...

and that something is actually you....

what will you think or say if you see......

Talking about senses and perfection..

does these two things relate to each other..???

if a person has all the 5 natural senses of human being..

that doesn't show he or she is already perfect to stand proudly on this Earth..

telling to the whole world that they are the most perfect creatures that has been created by Allah..

whereas..

there are some people who do not perfectly created by Allah..
or in other word they are defective..
but still,,it doesn't give us a ticket to insult or abuse them...

proceed to my main idea here...

what will you think or say if you see...........

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an old wrinkle man wobbled carefully....holding a patched umbrella..

he gave a dim looked towards a food stall..then he walked in and sat on one of the chairs there..
he ordered a cup of hot coffee..he rubbed his palms together..
trying to get some heat maybe..
when the waiter brought the coffee to the old man...
his right hand trembled when he wanted to drink that coffee...
he put it back..gave a slight blew to reduce the hotness..
not lifting up the cup again..he just hunched over the table...
enjoyed a sip of the hot coffee slowly...
but then..he kept staring at his coffee without blinking..

'Maybe that Pak Cik have lost his sense of taste..'
and he should enjoy his time at home during this rainy season..
not at the food stall..sitting alone with a cup of hot coffee..and being wrapped with coldness..



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you are at the mall..walking with your friends when you passed by one of the shops there..
it is a clothing store..
you accidentally gave a glance towards the store..
there...inside...
there was a man standing at a row full of long pants..
he touched all the tracksuits...
his eyelids can not open..they are sticking...
I believe he is a blind man...
behind him,,there's another man..holding his shoulders..
he's blind too...
they asked the salesgirl to tell them the size and colour of the tracksuits..
they just smiled as if they could see the salesgirl..
and their smile is so pure and it really showed me happiness..



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so..what will you think or say if you were in that situations..
looking at the old man and both of the blind men..
does your heart feels anything...??

just take a moment..
think about others...what we have..what they don't have...
how we live..and how they live..
just think..
everybody has be given a brain..a mind...
a brilliant one..!
think and be grateful..
that's all..